Life without ibu

Its not that easy, i've been struggling to live my life without her.. They just don't know how much I suffered, its easier said than done. Pn tan wrote something on my essay's book, she told me she really engrossed reading my essay and knows what i've been through and asked me to go and see counselor. Hmmm I can't, they do not understand my feelings, seriously. Its not like before this i never been there. I've been there a lot of times, seriously it won't works. Maybe I should just live my life like this and hoping it could be as beautiful as before.. Until then, I just have to wait..

million of tears..

 I love u so much, it makes me cry bcause I know that when it finally happened that someone will take u away or u would have to leave. My love for u won't be enough to make u stay :( I don't know why u did this to me, but hmmm. I played the same song, over and over cause it reminds me of u. Am i really that bad? and i don't deserve someone like u? For heaven sakes, im sick of trying. I'll always love u, forever, but i have to move on. May Allah bless u, amin.
I LOVE U SO MUCH *sighs

I missed ibu so much. Ibu i miss ur hugs :'( I cannot live without you, pls come back I just need u here beside me to get through all of this. Please Im begging u, I miss u so much ibu. Ekin rindu sgt dkt ibu, sgt sgt :'(
Balik rumah, tkd sp dekat rumah after all this time, ibu yg selalu tggu ekin dkt rumah, pick me up at school, tp skrg bile ekin balik skolah, theres nobody in the hse. Kakak keje. Im all alone in the house.
I forgot to tell u guys, hari tu i mimpi psl ibu. I cannot remember what day, but it happened last week if im not mistaken. I was so tired just got back from volleyball training, then mandi2 lepas tu baring dlm bilik tertidur. I dreamt bout ibu, mimpi time tu dalam kereta ibu duduk depan and i was at the back. We were heading to somewhere I don't know where. Time dlm keta tu, i pegang tgn die, i kiss tgn die byk kali seolah2 i mcm baru perasan ibu i yg i dh lame tk jumpe i mcm rase benda tu mcm realiti tp in the same time i tgh bermimpi. fhm tak? Hmmm then suddenly i menangis i ckp dgn die knp ibu tggl ekin? knp ibu tggl ekin sorg2? pls jgn tggl kn ekin lg, tp die tk brckp lngsung, die diam je. I cried some more, then suddenly kakak woke me up then she asked me knp i menangis while i tidur? I was a bit blur, I wiped my tears, then I told her that I was dreaming bout ibu. Sedih sgt kn? Tk tau la same ad itu betul2 ibu or cume mimpi. I harap sgt dpt jumpe ibu, peluk ibu, kiss ibu lameeeeeeeeeeeeeeee2. Setiap hari, setiap malam ekin msti berharap sgt supaya ibu dtg sini, tidur dgn ekin setiap mlm. I just, I cannot survive my life without u ibu :'(
;I dedicated this song for u ibu...

oral test 2010- cooking show

THE SCRIPT

Ekin: Good Afternoon to my beloved english teacher, Pn Tan Siew Yan and friends. Today, I'm going to show you guys how to make a simple sandwich for a picnic. A healthy way to enjoy urself, to have a picnic with a perfect simple sandwich. The ingredients is cabbage, cheese, black-pepper, tomato and wholegrain bread.
I'm going to use a healthy bread, which is wholegrain. You can also choose any kind of bread u prefer.
Then, decide what u want to put inside. There are tons of toppings from the classic peanut butter& jelly to the more complex ones such as tuna& vegetables. You can choose whatever u want but BE CAREFUL to mix flavors that work well together. So now, Renee is going to cut the tomato into slices, put it on the top of the bread, continue with cheese, some black-pepper and cabbage. Get together all ur picnic yummies& u're ready for picnic! Thank you.

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You're the reason I live and the reason I die, you're the reason