pantai medical centre - a night to remember

As i look around this hospital, i can barely breath and thinking about d past. where all of my family waiting here about a couple of weeks because of my mom illness. i can say that the memories are still fresh on my mind. I still remember when i took her fr a walk with the wheel chair. and rite now im at the same hospital where my mom hd passed away on the emergency section. But im here because of my sister who had a pneumonia. she still baby. looking her sick like tht is the most hardest thing to do. I am so pity to her. Now is about 8.45pm and i am still at d starbucks. waiting fr my brother to come here. Hmm i miss my ibu so badly. I just wish she was here :( i cant do anything other than crying. i just cant stand it. Ibu, if u were here right beside me, i just wanna hug u as long as i can. kiss u,and tell u to pls stay with me :'(

"Ya Allah ya tuhanku kau tabahkanlah hati aku dgn segala cabaran dan dugaan yg kau berikan. Aku memohon kpd kau ampunilah dosa ibuku YaAllah ya tuhanku.tempatkanlah die di syurga mu.jauhilah die dr azab api neraka mu dan azab kubur mu. tenangkn lah roh nya YaAllah ya tuhan ku yg maha pemurah lagi maha pengasih. Kau berilah cahaya di kuburnya YaAllah ya tuhanku supaya die berasa selesa di sana.Aku memohon supaya memakbulkan doaku ini sesungguhnya kau maha pengasih lagi maha penyayang.Amin"


Ibu,kalau ibu ad kt sni mesti skg kite dh sibuk beli2 brg utk raya, kin bukn tk brsyukur dgn segala pemberian papa. tp ibu and papa is a 2 different things. ibu ade cara ibu, n papa pn ade cara papa. kalau dgn ibu peg brshopping, ibu tk pnah merungut nk beli ape2. ibu ikut kn je hati ktorg. Malah,ibu yg ajk ktorg slalu peg shopping.ibu salu pegi dgn ekin. nk beli LV ke,nk beli coach ke,beli Braun Buffel and byk lg. ibu salu pegi dgn kin and ibu salu tye opinian ekin. Ekin yg byk spend time dgn ibu. sbb tu bile dtg je hari raya even hari2 biase. ekin msti teringat kn ibu. Its like, hidup seharian ekin yg dulu dh betul2 berubah. dlu even hari biase pn kte selalu kua n ibu tk benti2 shopping. ekin pn ikut kn je kerenah ibu sbb ekin pun ske shopping n ske tgk ibu happy brshopping wlaupn kdg2 ibu sukar nk kelua kn duit dr pocket because of trlmpau byk kte shopping. kin sedih sgt teringat hari terakhir kin kelua sama2 dgn ibu berdua. pergi gardens. ibu nk bayar bill maxis and ibu topup ekin Rm100. kin still ingat lg, kin tk pnh lupa psl tu. wlaupun time tu ibu tk larat, tp ibu still nk peg sne. ekin tk penah nk mrh ibu sbb ibu jalan pelahan2 and kin siap papah ibu jalan. kin tk expect yg hari tu adalah hr terakhir kte spend time sme2. tp lepas ibu meninggal ekin bru realize lepas abg boy cte kt kin psl hari yg kte klua tu. Rupe2 nye abg boy ckp ibu yg mintak abg boy amik kin n jgn bwk sp2(tp abg boy pn ikut cuma die tk kua skali because die just bwk keta). die ckp dgn abg boy die nk spend time dgn ekin je buat hari tu. Bile kin dgr cte abg boy, mengalir air mata ekin. even kin tgh type ni pon air mata dh mengalir. sedih sgt teringat ibu sambil dgr lagu song for mama. lagu ni mmg sgt sedih n menyentuh hati. ibu kin rindu sgt ibu, berapa hari lg kin nk Pmr. mcm hidup ni miserable gile tkde ibu. kalau ibu ade, sblum exam ibu mesti sediakn kin air zamzam. and kalau kin exam kin msti msg ibu supaya doakn kin cemerlang. ibu mesti reply balik insyallah anak ibu akan cemerlang ibu doakn. kin rindu sgt semua tu. smpai skrg, to be real kin still tk pcye and xboleh accept permegian ibu. Ibu, kalau lah ibu ad kt sbelah kin skrg n nampak ap yg kin tulis ni, pulanglah ibu. anakmu merindukn mu dan memerlukanmu setiap saat,setiap minit,setiap jam,setiap hari setiap masa!



**Bile tgk balik lirik lgu ni mmg sedih and lg brtmbh rindu dkt ibu...

Oh! Ibu.
Kau disiram bayu pagi
Kehilangan terasa kini
Dan kesepian

Dan aku
Bagai purnama gerhana
Di ibarat lautan kering
Tiada tempat ku layarkan
Hasratku ini
Masih belum sempat
Kubuktikannya kepadamu
Ibu tersayang
Kucurahkan rasa hati


Ku tatapi potret mu berulang kali
Kurenungkan kalimah yang diberi
Tuhan Yang Esa
Ampuni dosa ibu
Tempatkan mereka
Di antara kekasih kekasihMu

Oh! Ibu
Kau kasih sejati
Kutaburkan doa
Untukmu ibu
Ampunilah dosaku
Sejak ku dilahirkan
Hingga akhir hayatmu

Saat ini
Kuteruskan hidup
Tanpa bersamamu ibu

N-O-P

Aqeelah admitted hospital yesterday because of her lungs affected. n i was so pity about her condition right now. although i got this 'berak hitam' thingy i'd still calm and dont wanna make things more complicated. and today guess wht? aqeel got this wierd disease if you see this picture u might be wondering wht is happening to his penis. i am so curious about this. can someone gimme some opinion?

though, i am still studying fr my next coming pmr. eventhough i am so worried about my exam but still, i am really keeping this as a secret i do not want ppl or any of em know about my problems. enough papa with this problems, and plus aqeel. I just wish ibu were here and gimme those kata2 semangat:(

Its almost 7 rite now i think i should be prepare fr buka puase

Ooh mygodnesss

Hmm guess wht? hr ni pn aku tk g skola pg td teruk gile sakit pastu g clinic doctor bg ubt yg dos die tggi skit pstu die kate kalau lepas ni aku berak then kua najis wrna hitam terus pegi clinic then kena transfer ke hospital sbb maybe dlm perut ade luka. mygosh hrp2 la this thing will nver happen! so today pn tk puase la mkn bubur mcd. hmm trseksa woo trseksa!

having a extremely freakingly..

"GASTRIK"

smlm dh g clinic then doc gimme 2 days MC. so i didnt go 2 school today. tp subuh td tk bgn sahur then tk mkn ubt. im wondering how can i survive without taking any medicine. tp tahan jela kalau rse dh tk thn sgt bukk la. sementara tu dok layan la game path life dgn dorg ni kt office hahahahah.the 1st round aku kalah kau2 punye dpt last. but the 2nd round i won tp tk dpt 1st, dpt 2nd ke 3rd tk ingt(sorry la sejak 2 menjak ni everyone was like saying im nyanyok duhhhh). so dlm pkul 3.30 kot perut dh berkeroncong xapin. dh tk tahan sgt pegi la amik ubt. lps makan ubt then lega la sgt. huh

P/S: jgn lupe tgk iklan bru henry golding dkt tv3 tu. iklan minyak rmbut uber kot omygod he's hot man!  urgh 1 lg iklan scha dgn fahrin tu. sumpah aku menyampah gile do. mcm sial. tlg la scha tu. aku sumpah menyampah gile do dgn die.  duhh? of course i am jealous ok! "jealousy is acking to the love" and sudh semestinya i love fahrin ok! duhhhh naik menyampah.

Gastrik vs Pedih ulu hati?

Today, was my most sakit day. drpd smlm dh aku sakit ni. Kejadian jd mula2 sbb smlm aku tk bgn sahur. pastu g skola tgh hari skit sakit perut mcm nk mati n i was wondering tht was gastrik. so aku pn dh tk tahan skit then buat kputusan nk brbuka puasa so i can take my ubt nasib baik la aku all the time bwk ubt kt beg. so i called papa and akk. ask their permission dlu, the permission approval ahahha(mcm nak buat loan plk). lepas tu msuk kelas ape lg, amik air mkn ubt. erhhh lega do. then hari ni td pg akk bgn la kn shur tp perut tkd slera nk mkn sgt so minum milo je nk alas perut and i was thinking tht kalau minum milo maybe la better skit prut ni. but in couple of minutes, perut aku jd sakit balik mcm smlm. omgosh seriously mmg tk tahan do. akk was thinking tht mmg ape yg aku alami ni gastrik sbb die ckp org2 yg gastrik ni mmg tak boleh mula kn hari dorg dgn minum benda yg brsusu. chit chat chit chat die surh beli gaviscon plak. tp gaviscon bukn untuk pedih ulu hati ke? hehhh pelik la plk sakit aku ni. thnk god tk g skola hari ni. nk tggu si aunti ma tu bgn pstu g clinic. mygod tdo mati ke ape. hahahahahahah

the new password had been sent 2 me

yahoo dh sent password bru blog lame aku ni yg sudh sekian lama terbengkalai  mcm tu je. if im not mistaken, aku created blog ni mase 2007 time aku form1 :) hehehehe thank god dh boleh bukk balik. mls la nk buat yg bru mmg bernasib baik la password n akhirnya boleh bukk balik. *Fuhhhhhh
just fr ur information update2 yg lame 2 sudh pn aku delete semua. so i may begin a new post from now on:)